feeling all these feelings...

I hate feeling all of this conflicting garbage called emotions... i don't like it at all... I saw Jeff tonight. Token lesbian who is Jeff's daughter came by my job after they had dinner together to say hello and he lagged behind while we chatted about her week .. i spoke with his cousin who lives with him too... its fair to say they miss me, I miss them too, but i was so unhappy with him  i think i would have killed myself. he doesn't look good at all his hair looks a mess, he looks as though hes put on weight ... he doesn't look as though hes taking care of himself... i guess its not my problem anymore.. its so hard to shut off feelings and emotions after taking care of someone for so long.