He still makes my heart race and my head go numb. I think theres something just so wrong with me ...
Omg whatever.
Just me using this blog to write what comes to my mind, express my feelings, bring out some of the issues I have been dealing with, and to help me overcome the ghosts of my past.
Guys can be so critical at times, im sitting next to a guy at a bar who is bitching worse than my bitchy lesbian friends pathetic ... hes ugly and with another guy
So I realize i get jealous which is weird enough for me ... i don't know where these feelings are coming from.. seeing as u was.supposed to have let.go of any emotional attachments to sexy l ... i just dont see it happening .. i probably need some this month away from him to kill any feelings that may have developed
So now im sitting in the club ... wondering why im so sad and alone ... such is life i guess i need to get used to it.
It never ceases to amaze me how dumb the smartest people are... im sitting in sexy l bar and eavesdroping on a conversation motherfucking chicks give us bad names , just being dumb and shit ... i know i only have a high school diploma but my god! Motherfucker read a god damed book ... knowledge yourself up ... it pains me to listen to an educated young woman who should be well spoken and just sounds like a dumb fuck .... so tragic she is a med student with so much potential and us so socially retarded