tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-60250867193130202752024-03-19T14:42:29.177-07:00sign-in-sign-outJust me using this blog to write what comes to my mind, express my feelings, bring out some of the issues I have been dealing with, and to help me overcome the ghosts of my past.Passion Fruithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13619368314056662045noreply@blogger.comBlogger112125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6025086719313020275.post-28897470405338439192013-02-21T15:00:00.001-08:002013-02-21T15:00:59.864-08:00Things that make you go hmmm <p>So ... my friend asked me how i would feel if sexy l was into someone else ... naturally i would be jealous .. but i don't think i anticipated being jealous of someone close to me getting close to him ... i don't think i like this feeling at all... </p>
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<p>The problem with married men... they are married. </p>
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<p>Omg whatever.  </p>
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cockzilla and i are cool.. we see each other smile and wave as i go byPassion Fruithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13619368314056662045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6025086719313020275.post-46787827641867781992012-04-21T04:26:00.000-07:002012-04-21T04:26:23.178-07:00Words unspoken<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I have the pleasure at my job to be the adopted child of many of the older ladies because i carry myself a certain way. I am not loud nor do i brag, i keep to myself & i stay out of office politics. Yesterday one of the ladies asked me how my love life was going.. shes like a much cooler mother type to me she tells me aboout her adventures and i listen, as she explains why she does what she does and how she does these things. so i tell her about my complicated flirtation non friendship thing i have going on with sexy L.. when i describe him to people i think its obvious that i like him and would like to have romantic interest in him but its one sided. ... my best friend told me i need to disappear for a while so he gets interested in me. I just dont get why we have to play these games if there is a mutual attraction there... 2 days ago we sat and talked for 6hours straight.. no date, just a glass of wine and idle, random conversation about everything and nothing. I couldnt be more confused... he says he old fashioned which is cool but im also old fashioned but more straight forward.. im over thinking this. im gonna let it go. <br />Passion Fruithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13619368314056662045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6025086719313020275.post-22787014942023623002012-04-10T10:35:00.001-07:002012-04-10T10:35:22.559-07:00Weird night<p>Omg out partying and wtf Cockzilla sexy l and mr med school all in the motherfucking club. Forming some sort of weird strange sex / love square ..man wtf can it get any stranger </p> <br/> <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4</div>Passion Fruithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13619368314056662045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6025086719313020275.post-44051354844680051992012-03-11T09:47:00.000-07:002012-03-11T09:47:34.657-07:00lonelinessI miss the days when all i did was work 16 hour days so much so that i forgot i was lonely... I can only hope that i get to work as much again so i can forget that i go everywhere by myself and do everything alone... my friends told me i need a new hobby... if travelling was my new hobby i'd do that alone too... it would be nice to do things with someone i actually like ... like go to the beach and have a really awesome conversation / not or just read a book while vegging just to have someone to turn to and say something completely random to like " i love coming to the beach to watch the waves crash against the shore its so peaceful"Passion Fruithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13619368314056662045noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6025086719313020275.post-79509314757655734492012-03-11T09:34:00.002-07:002012-03-11T09:34:59.986-07:00sexy L again... i cannot understand this guy.. I went out with my girls last night and i see my crush and give him a huge hug & tell him he smells soooo good ... and he says "i taste good too, oops no i didnt say that" ...so i say oh really? make eye contact for like 5 seconds smile and walk inside the club with my gf.. 10 mins later he positions himself in the club to watch me and has his friend check me out too... all night i catch him looking at me ... so i leave with my friends go to tell him i might be coming back & he tells me to behave myself.. an hour later I get back to the club ... and he seemed excited to see me back by myself anyway club closes and i ask him to walk me to my car and he refuses :-( and suggests one of the bouncers ...I tell him i dont bite and ask him if hes afraid of me and he says yes so i ask why and he says cause of the things i post on facebook.. so i remind him that most of the things he sees i set my privacy settings so its only visible to him ... wtf ???Passion Fruithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13619368314056662045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6025086719313020275.post-67356712003027618672012-03-01T21:41:00.001-08:002012-03-01T21:41:32.949-08:00Just fed up<p>I got off work at midnight my house id three minutes away ... its after twelve thirty .. and im still waiting for my bro in law to pick me up ... wtf?  This id what pisses me off with them ... they are never on time to get me but will take forever . And then justify it by saying he don't feel right picking up his sister in law before his wife .... im so fucking pissed 37 minutes late </p> <br/> <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4</div>Passion Fruithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13619368314056662045noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6025086719313020275.post-27822868677200410732012-02-20T10:53:00.000-08:002012-02-20T10:53:15.031-08:00sexy Li remember the first time i saw him... he was so golden .. he was wearing jeans, a dress shirt, and a maroon velvet jacket... i was sitting in the corner of a coffee shop feeling sorry for myself ... attempting to drown my self pity in the caffeine . i glanced up and he was so beautiful he made my heart stop beating, and i stopped breathing and for a split second... our eyes met.. and i burned my tongue on my coffee.Passion Fruithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13619368314056662045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6025086719313020275.post-49557839939500237452012-02-19T19:59:00.001-08:002013-02-21T15:06:03.924-08:00bbg...we meet againSigh ... him and his cock... Just plain trouble. so i went to a birthday party a couple weeks ago.. a nice guy i had friend zoned invited me omg it was a fucking disaster... it rained off and on the birthday girl got wasted and kept announcing that she wanted to leave the restuarant and go somewhere else...needless to say since we all arrived in seperate cars i ditched the entire dinner party and went to sexy l's club .. where i proceeded to drink all alone.. got hit on by some weird looking creeper serial killer look alike then some house wife woma hit on me... then the cutest little canadian guy shows up arm covered in tattoos . lets cut to the chase .... he wore jeans ... just regular blue jeans ... oh they looked so sexy on him and i could see the outline of his semi hard cock in them and it looked like heaven.. so i pretended like i didnt see him all night until he approached me and said hello cheek kiss .. how ya doing, nice to see you, who you out with etc... and as usual im out by myself, doing good blah blah blah... ... maybe next time i see him i'll whisper something dirty in his ear to see if he could hide the erection...<br />
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anyway .. i got bored around midnight and left the club and hung out outside with the bouncers drinking water .. and staying out of the rain when bbg walks out of the club and i yell his name and order him to walk me to my car. he seemed happy enough to do so, he even held my pink umbrella for me... lol chivalry in the name of getting laid .. so i drive him to the beach .. and we proceed to fuck in the carPassion Fruithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13619368314056662045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6025086719313020275.post-43673289923264145842012-02-19T19:55:00.000-08:002012-02-19T19:55:42.384-08:00finding that inner peaceI realised something ... Ive been running away from myself, running away from my past running away from who i really am ... trying to change who i am and what i have become. I don't know why i have been doing this and i don't know who the hell i am trying to please either but i haven't been happy not for a while I'm fixing that. last night i went out got completely wasted don't know how the hell i got home ..but i realised something i wasn't horny, or feeling lonely, or feeling needy or any of that i think i might have healed myself in some weird self destructive behavior.Passion Fruithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13619368314056662045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6025086719313020275.post-10476801403690452552012-01-23T16:08:00.000-08:002012-01-23T16:08:54.600-08:00ive had it up to here ... wtf ?so today i jump on skype trying to get with mr range rover for some mediocre sex ... he has hooked up with someone else ............ wtf ? I'm almost at the point where im like whats the point ? really ? cause i dont get it.. bbg is acting weird.. range rover guy has found someone else to screw ... im sick of my vibrator.. and guess what sexy l has a little gf who is head over heels infatuated with him... <br />
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WHERE IS MY PERSON ? Passion Fruithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13619368314056662045noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6025086719313020275.post-4319775316698768662012-01-22T16:35:00.000-08:002012-01-22T16:35:34.946-08:00lost numbers..So.. monday i got a new phone, lost all my numbers ... go figure bbg's number was lost and im hornier than a rosebush. I cant even watch porn without getting frustrated and irritable.Passion Fruithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13619368314056662045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6025086719313020275.post-53724936126706294772012-01-15T13:51:00.000-08:002012-01-15T13:51:19.953-08:00i felt like rubbish yesterdaylast night .. everything that could go wrong did go wrong ... 1st my brother in law didn't pick me up from work on time.. 2nd I didn't wear makeup yesterday to work, 3rd sexy L didn't even recognise me ... , 4th felt like and ugly old cow... , 5th tried to get drunk didn't happen, 6th was supposed to go to a party last night never made it because my bro in law had to go to work at midnight which fucked with any plans i might have had last night...<br />
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On the plus side i made a cake, frosted it ... and its now sitting in the fridge ... i didn't eat it. that's the good that happened yesterday, but i learned my lesson, never leave the house without makeup on... <br />
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Passion fruitPassion Fruithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13619368314056662045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6025086719313020275.post-52265559630652866792012-01-12T14:26:00.000-08:002012-01-12T14:26:04.174-08:00Not paying attention...Today while sitting at my desk I realised something, we don't always pay attention to our surroundings. I don't consider myself a social butterfly by any means because I do enjoy hiding at home being me in my comfort zone; but I realized I have come in contact with sexy L a few times and barely noticed him and I mean not even eyeball from head to toe, I do not understand why, maybe its because I still thought I would remain faithful somehow to my failing relationship by not looking at people who live on the island... or maybe it just wasnt time to have my eyes open. Recently I asked the universe to send me a great love and a man who understands me and will accept me the way i am and love me for the better me i become; I'm still waiting. I dont know why I have always been in proximity to this man and never bumped into him, the one time I did have a chance to say hi without being creepy I didnt even notice him... because I had bbg on my mind and at the time it was more important to get that first fuck after my break up out of my system, talk about having a one tracked mind and not noticing anything. Any way all this is to say sometimes we just need to slow down, stop rushing through life, and take the time to enjoy the view; you never know who or what you might be missing.<br />
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Feeling particularly lonely, sexy L is now my Facebook friend but I don't think he is attracted to me. apparently we both have the same sense of humor, and the fondness for house, jungle, drum and bass music. I dunno maybe I need to be seen as someone who is in high demand for some interest to be shown, or look less slutty when I show up in the club. <br />
I'm back on e-harmony.Passion Fruithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13619368314056662045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6025086719313020275.post-65631139686388849192012-01-11T19:52:00.000-08:002012-01-11T19:52:02.958-08:00fucking range rover...So I fucked Mr. Range rover, I was really really really horny.. and we ended up talking about fantasies on skype... and the next day i told him to come pick me up and we had nicht so gut sex ...lol it sucked .. he was apparently tired from fishing all day.. and drinking all day.. he managed to get hard one and a half times ... he came too quick for my liking ... so i made use of his hands till i got to cum .. funny thing is ... his body is so boy like... i wanted to ask him what the fuck are you going to the gym for ? maybe he needs to come train with me ... ? <br />
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then .. the next day bbg sent me a text about wanting me in a short skirt in the back of my car... I ♥ his cock ...lolPassion Fruithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13619368314056662045noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6025086719313020275.post-61318633415445257172012-01-07T12:31:00.000-08:002012-01-07T12:31:20.889-08:00Things i wish i knew when i was younger ...Never stay with a man who makes you feel like shit.<br />
Do not tolerate abuse because you think you are in love<br />
If he doesn't show interest after you flirt or ask him out ... let it go.<br />
Being alone isn't so bad.Passion Fruithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13619368314056662045noreply@blogger.com0